THINGS I SHOULD HAVE SAID AND DONE wasn’t started as a result of a death but the fact that I got my backside in gear and actually made it into a book that someone (Accent Press) would want to publish came about after a brush with the Grim Reaper. My brush.
Twice in the space of 14 days he almost came for me and one day after the first near miss, I can clearly remember laying in a hospital bed looking out of the window and thinking, ‘If I get out of this, I’m going to get that book published.’ I didn’t want to die knowing that I didn’t give what I had dreamed of since I was a teenager my best shot.
I never wanted a high flying career, in fact I was saying to someone the other day that all I wanted to do was to get married, have children and have someone other than me read a book that I had written. What can I say? I don’t ask much from life. I’d got married at 19 and become a mum at 20 so what had I been doing for the next 30 years? I’d been living my simple life that’s what. Always assuming that there would be a tomorrow.
But what my brushes with death (there have been five in total so far) have taught me it’s that life can’t be taken for granted. There will be a day when there is no tomorrow. Well, to be fair it was the third time that taught me that, the first two just sort of passed me by. As one of the catch lines for my book says – one minute life’s good and the next it’s over.
I try not to put things off now. If there’s something I should do I try to do it and if there’s something that needs to be said I say it. In fact I find that these days my mouth has a life of it’s own. I’ve given up biting my tongue and that can make for interesting debate I don’t mind telling you.
There are still things that I wish I had or wish I hadn’t said or done. Right this second I wish that I hadn’t overindulged on the roast beef and Yorkshire puddings.
Things I Should Have Said and Done is now available on kindle published by The Pink Pen.
Please feel free to tell me what you might wish that you had said or done.